So, What's Up With My Faith?

"Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." Hebrews 11:1

I've been feeling so well lately. I am not sure if it has something to do with coming off of the medications, but I'm trying to not focus on it. It's a minute by minute thing, and I'm BEYOND proud of myself. I just need to keep my heart set on the daily blessings I receive from my God.

Speaking of God, where do you get your faith? Do you get it from the Bible? Do you get it from devotionals? Things that happen in your life?

I have ALWAYS struggled with my faith, which I think is one reason why I have been so afraid of death and dying. How can I be a Christian, proclaim my walk with Him everyday, and lack so much faith?

Sometimes questions run through my mind and I can't stop them.

What if God isn't real?

And then I snap back to "reality."

Yesterday, my faith was really faltering. Although I'm feeling pretty darn good, my life is still not perfect...and never will be. My family has struggles. The business of life overtakes us.

And then I looked into a woman's deep, chocolate brown eyes. And I saw faith. It wasn't anything she said, and we weren't talking about God or spirituality...or faith. Now, I know this woman does not question whether or not she will make it to Heaven. She knows for sure. But to see her eyes. The intricate parts of the eye. The pupil, the iris, the lashes, the eyelid, the brow.

One part of the human body, and every piece was made for a purpose. How else would the eye been made that way, if it weren't for a God? My God.

As I drove home that day, I suddenly thought of Champ, and I instantly had to catch my breath. The pit of my stomach began to ache.

Human Emotion. Another reason to have faith.

What purpose does human emotion serve, if there is not a God? If it was not for The Grace.

We feel deep sadness, we feel unexplainable joy, we feel love, we feel anger. That is God. That is my faith. That is all of the proof that I need.

The Grace.

I am so blessed to be doing better. To have found a different path. To have meetings with my Life Coach that aren't filled with tears and panic. To be able to get out of bed and FEEL these emotions that God has blessed us with, even if they may not be the emotions that I want to feel. To feel THIS faith.

And that, my friends, is what's up with my faith.

I would love to have a conversation about how you find faith. Email, comment or message me through Facebook!

Humbly His,
L.